Musings

My thoughts on different current events and social topics.

  • Adventures,  Living With Bipolar Disorder,  Musings

    2 Weeks in Cartagena: What I Learned About Myself

     Two weeks in Cartagena taught me just how much my mental illness limits me. So boom, I did my almost annual international birthday trip and decided to really challenge myself this time. After multiple covid infections plus a concussion, I have been worried about cognitive decline and struggling with anything involving memorization and concentration. So instead of my four days to one week of birthday travel, I decided to spend two weeks in Cartagena, Colombia for leisure and to attend immersive Spanish classes. This ended up being the worst international trip that I’ve taken thus far. All of the negative parts about this trip had nothing to do with the…

  • Musings

    Are They Really A Healer Or….

    This is a cranky, elder millennial rant, so fair warning. There is this thing that I’ve been seeing more and more on social media where a lot of clinical psychology and mental health terminology/ concepts have been adopted and bastardized by people, particularly the New Age spiritual girlies and what I guess you could call “self-help influencers.” While on the surface it isn’t technically a bad thing, because it kind of speaks to society shifting to viewing mental health and emotional issues as real, worthy of examining, and beneficial to heal. There are also a lot of people with more than a surface-level understanding of this subject matter that do…

  • Musings

    My Loc Journey

    It’s officially 1 year into my loc journey. I feel like I should have more words for this but I don’t. Don’t get me wrong, I love my hair in locs. I love the look of them. I love the ease of them. I love that don’t feel the urge to be a product junkie anymore. Wash days are so simple. It’s been great having them. I also feel less self-conscious even when my hair is weeks out from a retwist. So since I don’t have anything prolific to say, I present some of the pictures I’ve taken over the past year:

  • Musings

    Throat Chakra, Is That You?

    I hit a roadblock of realization. I call it a roadblock and not a revelation or lesson because I feel like it’s completely stopped me in my tracks. In trying to wrap my head around and get over a recent breakup, I realized that despite all the hours of therapy, the years of putting what I learned into action, and my constant and borderline obsessive self-assessment, that I’m not where I need to be in terms of effective and honest communication. I don’t always say everything I need to or everything I want to and it leaves my relationships rife with miscommunications, misunderstandings, and plenty of unsaid and unaddressed needs…

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    I’m Still Here

    Hey. Hi. Hello. It’s been quite some time since I’ve written a blog or Patreon post and I’m fighting the urge to apologize for it because I needed the time away. The past year and change has been weird. And not just because of Covid. Life has changed. Goals have changed. I have changed. In all these changes and the mental energy that surrounds them, I’ve neglected this blog. I’ve neglected my Patreon. I’ve neglected to try to find the joy and passion in what I once used to love. I wanted to get back to makeup reviews, but my skin became highly sensitive after having Covid. Every time I…