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2 Weeks in Cartagena: What I Learned About Myself
Two weeks in Cartagena taught me just how much my mental illness limits me. So boom, I did my almost annual international birthday trip and decided to really challenge myself this time. After multiple covid infections plus a concussion, I have been worried about cognitive decline and struggling with anything involving memorization and concentration. So instead of my four days to one week of birthday travel, I decided to spend two weeks in Cartagena, Colombia for leisure and to attend immersive Spanish classes. This ended up being the worst international trip that I’ve taken thus far. All of the negative parts about this trip had nothing to do with the…
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Why I Stopped Actively Dating
I’ve been mulling this topic over for the past year after going through a breakup and 3 severe depressive episodes. I don’t really like the conclusion I’ve come to, because it makes me face some truths about myself, my circumstances, and the world I live in that are far from comfortable. It also shatters a hope that I’ve had since I was young and I’ve been avoiding facing that a lot of my desires from when I was younger were aspirational at best and delusional at worst. I just won’t be actively seeking to date anyone any longer. We all know the most common reason that so many of us…
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What Happens After Depression?
Rarely is it like a switch being flipped going from light to dark. It happens in slow steady steps.
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Hypomania Highlighted
You've switched to the primal recesses of your mind, but you're in control. Or so you think.
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The Kids Aren’t Alright
And by “the kids” I mean me. I just needed a catchy title. I’m fresh off another hospitalization and knee deep in an ongoing war with my insurance company to get the one treatment that actually works for me reauthorized. My parents and I have had to go full “I was told by Applecare” on United Healthcare, Optum Behavioral Health, and Johnson & Johnson. But that’s really beside the point of this post. While spending my days in the hospital laying under the covers in my room, instead of attending groups, I had way too much time in my own head. Something I took for granted while outside of the…
